:: So It Is Written... ::

:: Thursday, November 11, 2004 ::

 

hey... what happened... I was just surfing, and now I'm writing on my blog. oh well.. since I'm here.....

so I have a couple of friends that are not sure what they're doing, but they like each other and they've been on a date blah blah blah... but one of them may or may not have a girlfriend, and this just came up today. So I'm talking to the girl and trying to give advice objectively and everything... and I'm trying to be helpful, but it's not working. What I really want to say is, "I'm sorry, but I think you're probably too immature to be dating right now. Please try again in a few years." It's like junior high love... You've been on one date, so now your world revolves around this guy, and you'll never find another soul on this plant that could ever be as beautiful as his. ::gag:: grow up. You're only 18, and only by a few months... You should reread your own online journal... you have two or three times in there where you say the same thing. maybe you should identify the trend and reconsider what you set your emotional max to be. possibly redefine "love" as "infatuation" and then set out on a decade long quest to redefine love. Also, please spend some time alone, not attached to a guy. You have very little sense of self. It is not good to define oneself in terms of the man attached to your arm. Can I get an Amen!?

I'm officially putting this girl up as a candidate for the "first time around" award. We all know and love... err... know the first winner of this award. For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about, it's basically a reincarnation thing. Some people just have an inherent wisdom about them. I equate this wisdom and insight into how many times they've been around the block, so to speak. People who have no sense of wisdom and very little sense-of-self are nominated for "new soul" status. It'll take a while and at least two other people to confer this status upon her.

I may be being a bit harsh here... I've found I've been very easily irritated lately. Not sure why. It's an internal thing, I'm sure. I think some of it may be I have a "you can't get there from here" problem. There are a lot of things I'd like to be doing now or in a few years, but there's no way I can do it now given my currently situation. It's left me in a sort of search for some semi-lofty goal (sorry, ran out of S words). Like, I want to jump on ideas and run with them. A friend of mine suggested we start an independent theater here in town, and there just happens to be one for sale. The owner is selling it complete with seats, concessions, screens, and projectors. All for about half a million. Well, ok... seats are normally $100K and a single projector can easily run $100K, and this one has four. As much as we both love movies, this seems like it would be soooo much fun. We just need $250K. $100K downpayment on the theater, and another $150K to renovate it to what we want.

Now see what I mean about lofty ideas?

I'm also working with a friend to solve a math problem that is worth about $100K. Granted, no one has ever solved it before, but no one has tried his method... I don't want to talk about it to much here, but it really has potential. The main problem would just be pure processor time. I may post something later asking for people to donate processor time to this. We'll see. In related news, my research has now officially given me access to this computer. It's the 126th most powerful computer in the world, and has 1038 processors. Now I really can say that my other computer is a 1000 node supercluster. Anyway, this has opened the possibility of using this computer for purposes other than its intended use. This is very tempting, especially when trying to solve a math problem worth so much money, and only being limited by processor power. Consider this: my computer is a dual 2Ghz machine, and it takes this computer 1 day, 11 hours, 2 minutes, and 24 seconds to do what it would take my computer ONE YEAR to do. I get my time in 48 hour blocks... that means if I ran a single batch through this machine of our number crunching algorithm, I would effectively save us almost 18 months of time.

Anyway... I really need to sleep... first, a quote... this one is more funny because of who it came from... my boss... people around here are normally so stuck up... but this is why I work for this guy instead of anyone else...

Quote of the Day:

"They'd be training you to do job before they ever hired you. That's, like, every manager's wet dream right there."

:: posted by Tmber :: 1:21 AM ::